Crisis

Living with depression you can have some bad days and then you can have some really bad days – crisis days perhaps. It’s so much easier said then done but you need to remember a few things when you feel this way, or just read this article if you ever feel that way.

This will pass…

When you’re in such a bad mental state you forget that you won’t always feel like this; you forget these horrendous feelings will pass. Remembering when you’re at your lowest low, that you have been here before and you have picked yourself up again is crucial – if you can do it once you can do it again. And yes, you’ll think “but that’s exhausting” and I agree that it is, but throughout recovery these days will get less and less and you’ll eventually instantly remember you don’t feel like this all the time.

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Always keep in mind that recovery is not a linear process. You will stumble and fall down on your way to the top; you get back up and continue your climb.

This is not YOUR FAULT…

You have an illness, you are not being dramatic or hyperbolic and it is not something you can control so don’t feel guilty about it.

Lots of people DO care about you…

Depression will make you feel worthless, isolated and unwanted but it’s necessary to recognise that it is depression making you feel this way – it isn’t true. When people have told me that they care about me before I have thought they were outright lying, but they aren’t – this is depression taking over your thoughts. Yolanda Hadid says, “Don’t tell me you’re my friend – act like one” and this statement is so true! If you don’t believe what people are saying to you then look at their actions. You might accuse your friend of secretly hating you, but ask yourself do they make an effort to talk to me, an effort to check how I’m doing or an effort to make plans with me? Actions prove the way someone cares about you and helps you to look at the situation logically.

Your story isn’t over – so don’t end it…

You could wake up tomorrow and there could be a cure for all mental illness! You could wake up tomorrow and have won the lottery! You could wake up tomorrow and there could be world peace or some other miracle. It might seem unbearable but you have to hang in there because the world will keep turning without you and you will miss out on your destiny.

Think to the past…

Have you ever wanted to end your life before? Think back to those times and then reflect on how many good experiences that you have had since then. Think about all the new friends you’ve made, all the nights out you’ve been on and all your happy moments that have been made after you have considered this before – these would not have happened if you had ended it. Now think to the future, you don’t want to miss out on all the happy moments that will occur, so stay strong.

You need to talk to someone…

Phone a friend or family member, tell them how you feel. Talking helps so much and feeling suicidal is very dangerous – you need help, you deserve help. You can call the Samaritans at anytime on 116123 and they are expertly trained to help people in crisis therefore I recommend you do so.

I hope this helps if you are in crisis. It’s a horrendous way to feel and no one deserves that. You are strong and you can do this and you won’t always feel this way. Visit Reasons to live for more strength in this battle.

YOU ARE MEANT TO BE HERE FOR A REASON